I’m a control freak. One that differentiates between happiness and joy. Happiness is entirely situational. It comes and goes with the circumstances. Joy, on the other hand, is a product of my internal narrative. A result of the meaning I give to my circumstances. One of these I have absolutely no control over. The other I have complete control over.  

As a confirmed and unashamed controlled freak, I know precisely which one I’m giving my time and energy to.